i can’t wait for the day where i can make a post about how my weight is in the 150’s. and even then, i’ll probably stay at that weight for a little while then feel the need to just go run. because by then, i’ll be able to just go for a job whenever i want without feeling the pressure of ‘i have to do this’ or ‘i need to do this’ mixed with a tiny amount of ‘i want to do this’. running is not fun, not for me. it hurts my feet more than anything. and my knees. but i know if my body wasn’t as heavy as it is now, it would be so much easier for me to just decided to go for a morning jog because i want to.
since i officially started my working out and eating right earlier this week, i’ve felt a million times better. and by eating healthy, i’m doing what i can with what i’ve got. being jobless proves to be an issue when it comes to buying my own groceries. so what i eat is going to be the same thing that Ant and his dad are gonna eat. the other night we had homemade burritos. no meat for me! i was so proud. i just can’t wait until i’ve got the money to start buying all sorts of healthy munchies because ever since i started working out, my tummy gets grumbly a lot faster than it used to.
when i finally do reach my goal weight i’m going to finally join a gym. and a yoga class. i will have the self-confidence i lack right now in order to have both. but i’d like to be able to learn yoga fully, instead of just what i pick up from youtube videos, and since i can’t afford some of the cardio work-out machines that gyms have, i must have a membership.
i also decided to set up a reward system for myself when i finally get a scale and such. now i just have to sit and think about how i want to reward myself. :>
my body is incredibly sore from me deciding to do over an hour workouts almost every day. plus walking a mile+ each day. so i decided that today and tomorrow is walking ONLY. but i’m not going to over-do it to the point of burning myself out. i know the pain is only temporary, and i should just burst through it, but i tried that yesterday, and thanks to Ant’s deduction, i’ve got a strained muscle in my right upper arm. probably from push-ups. which sucks balls, but i’d rather keep cream on it and let it heal itself up instead of trying to work harder when i already know my body needs some rest.
going to go make myself some breakfast now.
then maybe watch some telly.
followed by cleaning up around the house some more.
then a nice long walk.
so long as it’s not raining.
